Blog Tour: Friendship Fails of Emma Nash by Chloe Seager – Review

Synopsis from Goodreads

Emma Nash is back….and determined to work out the world of friendships and relationships once and for all (…ish).

Now she’s in the sixth form, Emma’s expecting life to be a breeze but when her best friend Steph suddenly has a boyfriend who she’s spending more time with Emma’s not sure what to do with herself.

So Emma’s got a mission in mind: making new friends. Signing up for the school fashion show seems like the perfect opportunity. Although soon, through a series of mishaps that are absolutely not Emma’s fault (well, sort of), her world is teetering on the edge of disaster again.

Would going back to creating a life for herself online reaaaaaallllyyy be so bad?

Review

If you know me at all, you know how much I loved Editing Emma by Chloe Seager. It was one of my favourite reads of 2017, and now with its sequel Friendship Fails of Emma Nash, Chloe did it again.

This was the only book that I had on pre-order this year. So when I was told that I was going to be part of the blog tour I literally squealed of excitement. Not even joking, you can ask my boyfriend, he thought I had won the lottery for a second. Which would have been pretty epic too.

So as you can probably guess, I literally devoured this book when it arrived. I laughed so much that I had tears in my eyes.

In Friendship Fails of Emma Nash, the ever so funny Emma leaves her dating disasters behind her and dwells on making new friendships. We all have that moment in our lives when our friends start dating and you stuck between being a third wheel or leave them be to enjoy themselves and their new bae.

What Emma is about to discover is that friendships are just a hard to maintain as any romantic relationship. Chloe’s writing is not only hilarious but also finds a subtle fun way to deal with a lot of important issues. Issues that a lot of teenage girls should see more in YA books.

One of the things I mentioned when I reviewed Editing Emma is how this was a book I hoped I had when I was a teenager. Friendship Fails by Emma Nash is an amazing follow up to that. Once again, dealing on a deeper level with masturbation (not only female this time) and periods, but also dealing with orgasms or lack of thereof, female friendship, jealousy and how female/male relationships are real and not a myth.

Growing up, sometimes is hard to see what we have right in front of us. You can focus on something else so much and for so long, that you don’t realise what is happening around you. This is one of the lessons I take from this book, don’t force your friendships and open your eyes to the ones that are happening naturally. Also never stop making the effort for those friendships that matter!

Be weird! Be yourself! As you will always find a Steph that would love you no matter what. I’m very lucky that I have found my own Steph, as just like Emma I’m the weirdest gal you can meet. When you do, make sure you don’t let go!

If you are a fan of laughing until your belly hurts make sure to pick up a copy of Friendship Fails of Emma Nash by Chloe Seager. While there also pick up Editing Emma too, as is a great introduction to the ever weird, ever funny Emma Nash.

Rating: ★★★★★

Friendship Fails by Emma Nash by Chloe Seager is available as a paperback and you can get it now on Amazon (affiliated link).

Thanks HQ and Nina Douglas for sending me an paperback copy of Friendship Fails of Emma Nash in exchange for my honest review.

*FangirlSince1988 xxx

P.s.: Once again I met the ever so lovely Chloe Seager at YALC for my birthday. I think we starting a little tradition. Bonus photo: My favourite photo with Chloe from the CHCCYAFest. AHAH

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Blog Tour: Friendship Fails of Emma Nash by Chloe Seager – My Person

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“When you look to the Mirror of Erised what do you see?

Me and you, we are all crinkly. After all these years, your now white hair is still perfect. We are old. We are laughing. We are happy.”


As part of the Blog Tour for the hilarious book Friendship Fails of Emma Nash by Chloe Seager, I have been asked to write something about friendships, any kind of friendship. Good ones or bad ones. New or Old.

Two things I have realised upon writing this post. First, this is a long ass post and I’m pretty sure it isn’t what the publicists had in mind. Second, never make me write about friendships, because I will probably end up writing a love letter instead. Like this one.

I do have some wonderful friendships in my life that make me the luckiest person in the world. However, I also had some friendships that aren’t quite right, where you don’t realise how manipulative the other person is and I even have been ghosted after 5 years of friendship. I had friendships that have just fizzled out and I have friendships that not even distance can break us apart. The ones that come about in real life and the ones that you make from meeting online. I even had the one that was taken away from me way to soon, but that is a story for another time.

You can say what you want but Emma Nash got it right “Friendships take just as much work as romantic relationships”

I’m a very positive person, so I like to concentrate on my Friendship Successes instead of my Friendship Fails. In this case, I will be telling you about my biggest friendship achievement of all time. Almost 13 years with my person, the Cristina to my Meredith, the finest bird out there, Andreia.

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Look at that face!! Isn’t she gorgeous?!

I was 17 and she was 15 when we met back in 2005. The same year Grey’s Anatomy came out! This was clearly meant to be! We met in high school (college equivalent for UK people). I was the new girl in my class, most people already knew each other as they’ve been together since before High School. It’s always hard to be the new girl, but the moment I put my eyes on this amazing specimen that was Andreia, I knew she will be stuck with me for life. #SorryNotSorry

To be perfectly honest here, we don’t remember much of how this wonderful friendship started. We can’t remember what day we started school that year, so we basically celebrate during the whole of September. It’s one of those friendships that just happened naturally and 13 years after we still friends and we are like WTF? How? How does she put up with me after 13 years, it ain’t easy, why am I so lucky?

I do believe that there is such thing as soulmate friends, and Andreia is my soulmate. Ain’t that deep?

We both have been through a lot, and I probably couldn’t have copped with half of it if she wasn’t in my life. I know that is true because the hardest time I had was when we were apart for 3 years. It was during the time that I moved to England first for University and she stayed behind doing her Biology degree in Portugal. The happiest moment was when she was accepted to do her Masters in London, I had my person back!

In almost 13 years we have some great stories. Well at least we think they are great. You know, maybe you had to be there to understand what I mean, maybe not. To us they are hilarious.

Like the amount of times I used to squeeze Andreia’s face against bus windows. Seriously how does she still love me? 

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The time we travelled on the bus for 15 hours all the way from Lisbon to Andorra for our end of the year/spring break holiday. It was such and amazing week with amazing memories.

Like when our friend Marta took a picture of me and Andreia over night on the bus with a flash and got us blind. I’M BLIND!

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When we decided to go sledge after hours in the tracks and I ended up in a hole.

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When everyone left for the spa and Me, Andreia and Marta stayed behind to cook dinner for everyone. Let’s say cooking while drinking Smirnoff Ice not a good idea. How many fingers do you see Andreia? The rice was so bad that you could throw it against a wall and got stuck. Yes, we did try it. Yes, it got stuck. No, I don’t have a picture of such feat. We need to go back again one day, and re-live our glory days.

There is also the time Andreia said  ‘No way, you going to England without being drunk first with me’. Well, let’s say that night finished with Andreia throwing up in the sink as I needed to go pee. As I was putting my panties down I ended up falling into the bathtub. So there I was, on my back like a turtle, with my panties on my ankles calling out for Andreia. Let’s just say that playing the Grey’s Anatomy drinking game ends up in disaster because the amount of times they say Seriously, is seriously too many!

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We were there for each other graduations in England. We both loved the Harry Potter feel of the whole thing.

She is my favourite person to watch Horror films with. Seriously, anything makes her jump and scream. When I used to have sleepovers at her house, I used to hide under the bed while she went to the toilet and even though she knew I was there (she could hear me laughing!) when I grabbed her feet she still jumped like crazy! She holds onto my arm so much during Horror films that I get bruises in my arm, but is all worth it.

I love how passionate she is about birds and does her best to achieve her life goals, and I try my best to support her. Like making sure we take pictures with birds!

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I love how my warm hands heat her cold hands during winter.

I love how she dances like Mr. Bean.

I love how we are each other next of kin for literally everything. I got you boo!

I love how we love to dance to the Mamma Mia soundtrack around my grandma’s pool and just be silly together.

I love how when she comes visit us, Nick (my boyfriend) knows that his side of the bed isn’t really his side of the bed anymore. It is her side of the bed. You know, she was here first after all. 

I love so many things about this woman that if I was gonna write them all I will be forever typing.

This is why I can connect with Emma Nash so much, because the way she describes her friendship with Steph, is how I feel with Andreia. There is nothing I won’t do for that woman! I just love her so much. Argh. Why is she so awesome? So smart? And so beautiful? With such perfect hair? I sometimes dream of cutting her hair out and making a wig. I know. I seriously don’t know why she loves my weird ass!

If only she could see what I see! Maybe she would see how amazing she is.  She is one of the first people that when I first met I knew that she is the one I want to grew old with. Retirement is gonna be epic!

She really is the Cristina to my Meredith.

“She’s my person. If I murdered someone, she’s the person I’d call to help me drag the corpse across the living room floor. She’s my person.” — Dr. Cristina Yang – ‘Drowning on Dry Land’ (Season 3, Episode 16)

So this is my Friendship Success! Who is yours?

Make sure to get Chloe Seager’s Editing Emma and Friendship Fails of Emma Nash now at Amazon (affiliated link).

Two laugh out loud books that you need in your life.

*FangirlSince 1988 xxx

Blog Blitz: The Girl in The Storm (#2 Paradigm Trilogy) by Ceri A. Lowe – Review

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Synopsis by Goodreads

The silhouettes of the watchers stood stark against the glinting metal fence. No one could get in. And no one could get out.

As the storms rage around her, 15-year-old Alice Davenport is trained by the rulers of the new world,Paradigm Industries, to reach the highest levels of command. Life within the Community is supposed to be perfect, with the Barricades keeping the population safe from the toxic wasteland and savage people outside.

Rebellious Alice has never felt easy with Paradigm Industries’ plans for the future. Determined to investigate their secrets, she makes a shocking discovery: disturbing experiments on how to create life itself are taking place in underground laboratories, establishing a new order for society that will impact generations to come…

The First Generation Scouts will rule.

The Second Gen will obey.

And the Lab Made will serve.

Knowing she can’t live in this brutal regime, Alice has nowhere to turn. Until she encounters a boy from beyond the Barricades, who seems to have the answers for a better life. If what he says about the outside world is true, Alice realises it’s up to her to take on the power of Paradigm Industries alone…

In her journey to find freedom, Alice’s courage will be tested to the limit, but she’ll stop at nothing to do what’s right.

Review

The Girl in The Storm is the second book of the Paradigm Trilogy by Ceri A. Lowe. I have read and reviewed the first book The Rising Storm back in April this year and really enjoyed it.

One of the many perks of this trilogy is that we don’t have to wait years for the next instalment. As they are working on getting all three books out in 2018. There is no ‘Oh, has been too long now and can’t remember what happened in the previous book’.

There is a tendency for sequels to not be as good as the first book in the series, I think with The Girl in The Storm we have a sequel that is equally as good as the first instalment of the series, maybe even better? If this is any indication of what is to come our way, the third book is going to be freaking amazing.

Funnily, enough with the first book, I preferred Alice over Carter. However, with The Girl in The Storm Carter really grew on me and actually at times I saw myself screaming at Alice to open her eyes and see the truth right in front of her. She just a bit naive and too trustworthy.

I feel that things get grittier as we get to know more about The Industry and their practices. It’s that point in the story where you and the characters start to figure out that not all is as they have been told.

One of my biggest expectations coming to this book was, if we will finally find out how Alice’s and Carter’s story lines will finally crossover. We do and Oh My! That wasn’t what I originally expect it. All has been set up to make the third instalment some dystopian awesomeness and I can’t wait.

If you want to read some great YA dystopian series that is actually set in the UK and not in the USA this is the series for you.

I can’t wait for the last instalment and the conclusion to this brilliant series, good thing I would only have to wait a few months.

Rating: ★★★★☆

The Girl in The Storm by Ceri A. Lowe is available as an e-book and you can get it now on Amazon (affiliated link).

Thanks Bookouture and Noelle Holten for sending me an e-copy of The Girl in The Storm in exchange for my honest review.

*FangirlSince1988 xxx

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30 Literary Quotes That I Love

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I’m one of those people that truly connects with what has been written in a book. I usually see a deeper meaning that maybe the author intended. However, sometimes that quote is exactly what you needed to make feel like you aren’t the only one thinking a certain way. Or feeling a certain feeling.

For this particular post I have chosen 30 Literary Quotes that have stuck with me for many different reasons. Mostly, because at the time it was exactly what I needed.

1 – “I don’t think of all the misery but of the beauty that still remains.” – Anne Frank, The Diary of Anne Frank

2 – “How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world.” – Anne Frank, The Diary of Anne Frank

3 – “Get busy living or get busy dying.” – Stephen King, The Shawshank Redemption

4 – “Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do.” – H.Jackson Brown Jr., P.S. I Love You

5 – “It’s no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then.” – Lewis Carroll, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland

6 – “Travel far enough, you meet yourself.” – David Mitchell, Cloud Atlas

7 – “Not all those who wander are lost.” – J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring

8 – “Hope can be bruised and battered. It can be forced underground and even rendered unconscious, but hope can never be killed.” – Neal Shusterman, Unsouled

9 – “It is the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more.” – J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

10 – “I declare after all there is no enjoyment like reading! How much sooner one tires of any thing than of a book! — When I have a house of my own, I shall be miserable if I have not an excellent library.” – Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice

11 – “The person, be it gentleman or lady, who has not pleasure in a good novel, must be intolerably stupid.” – Jane Austen, Northanger Abbey

12 – “Sometimes the dreams that come true are the dreams you never even knew you had.” – Alice Sebold, The Lovely Bones

13 – “Because horror on Earth is real and it is every day. It is like a flower or like the sun; it cannot be contained.” – Alice Sebold, The Lovely Bones

14 – “Libraries were full of ideas—perhaps the most dangerous and powerful of all weapons.” – Sarah J Maas, Throne of Glass 

15 – “Some infinities are bigger than other infinities.” – John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

16 – “That’s the thing about pain. It demands to be felt.” – John Green, The Fault In Our Stars

17 – “Fear doesn’t shut you down; it wakes you up” – Veronica Roth, Divergent

18 – “It would have been better to return at the same time,” the fox said.  “For instance, if you come at four in the afternoon, I’ll begin to be happy by three.  The closer it gets to four, the happier I’ll feel.  By four I’ll be all excited and worried; I’ll discover what it costs to be happy!  But if you come at any old time, I’ll never know when I should prepare my heart…” – Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince

19 – “We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.” – Oscar Wilde, Lady Windermere’s Fan

20 –“Let the world tremble as it senses all you are about to accomplish.” – Luís de Camões, The Lusiads

21 – “It does not do well to dwell on dreams and forget to live.” ― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone

22 – “Man selects only for his own good: Nature only for that of the being which she tends.” – Charles Darwin, The Origin of Species

23 – “There is no greater sorrow than to recall happiness in times of misery.” – Dante Alighieri, The Divine Comedy

24 – “Bitches bite back. And men hate that. Society hates that.” – Laura Steven, The Exact Opposite of Okay

25 – “May the odds be ever in your favor!” – Suzanne Collins, The Hunger Games

26 – “People being tough with you doesn’t mean they’re villains.” – Anna Kendrick, Scrappy Little Nobody

27 – “We all have to dream our own dreams. We only get one life to live—live it for yourself, not anyone else.” – Akemi Dawn Bowman, Starfish

28 – “We accept the love we think we deserve.” – Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

29 – “A man does what he can; a woman does what a man cannot.” – Isabel Allende, Inés of My Soul

30 – “For women, the best aphrodisiacs are words. The G-spot is in the ears. He who looks for it below there is wasting his time.” – Isabel Allende, Of Love and Shadows

What are some of your favourite literary quotes? Any of them in this list? Let me know in the comments bellow.

Have a wonderful reading day, finding more beautiful quotes to fill your heart.

Birthday Countdown: 4 DAYS TO GO!

*FangirlSince1988 xxx

 

30 Things I want to do at YALC/LFCC

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YALC/LFCC is fast approaching and once again I’m celebrating my birthday amongst my people! There isn’t a better way to celebrate your birthday than surrounded by books and all things nerdy!

Yes, even if you are turning 30! You never too old to enjoy life!

I thought will be a good idea to include 30 things that I want to do during my 3 days at YALC/LFCC. I’m breaking it down to 10 per day, but of course things will change when there. Either due to tiredness or because we get distracted with a giveaway.

However, these are 30 things that I hope I get to do when at YALC/LFCC (Mostly YALC to be honest!)

27th of July

YALC Agent Arena – How to get Published with Sandra Sawicka, Chloe Seager and Danielle Zinger

YALC Usborne Stand – Slay Your Demons Workshop with Kim Curran

YALC Book Signing – Chloe Seager

YALC Workshop – Fight Like a Pirate! with Ed McDonald and Team

YALC Workshop – How to Write Funny with Chloe Seager

YALC Bloomsbury Stand – Sarah J Maas Nail Art

YALC Agent Arena – Talk to our Agents, pitch your novel or ask questions

LFCC – Going to the weapons stand and do a lucky dip

LFCC – Check out the Star Wars Zone and the Lego display of the Forest Moon of Endor

LFCC – Check Jason Momoa out from a distance

28th of July 

YALC Agents Arena – Careers in Publishing with Chloe Seager and guests

YALC Book Signing – Keris Stainton

YALC Book Signing – Tomi Adeyemi

YALC Book Signing – Lauren Steven

YALC Workshop – MuggleNet’s Potter Party

YALC Workshop – Books and Boobs with Coppafeel

YALC Panel – My Body, My Way with Charli Howard, Charly Cox, Dhonielle Clayton, Laura Dockrill and Laura Steven

YALC Hot Key Books Stand – Siren Makeover

LFCC – Check out Stranger Things Set (maybe get a picture)

LFCC – Treat myself to a Pop Vinyl for my birthday

29th of July

YALC Agents Arena – Editing Workshop with Sandra Sawicka

YALC Workshop – Secrets of the Alchemist: A Mixology Workshop with Sarah Holland

YALC Workshop – Coppafeel Bra making with literary theme!

YALC Signing – Akemi Dawn Bowman

YALC Signing – Julie Mayhew

YALC Signing – Kelly McCaughrain

LFCC – Check out Matt Smith

LFCC – Check out Bumblebee in the Car Zone

LFCC Main Stage – Wrestling

LFCC – Check Out Tardis console

I can’t wait for YALC! Are you going to YALC this year? What are you most looking forward to see or do at YALC? How about at LFCC? Let me know in the comments.

The best is going to be to hang out with my book babes and my bestie!

Birthday Countdown: 5 DAYS TO GO!

*FangirlSince1988 xxx

30 Books in my TBR

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As per suggestion of the lovely Ash at For The Love of Books, today’s post is 30 books that I have on my never ending TBR.

I have literally picked them at random. I’m not gonna lie here, I do have a pretty big TBR that just keeps growing. Who doesn’t right?

I have resigned myself that the way I’m going to leave this world is by an avalanche of books. It’s gonna happen one day, just hope that is later rather than soon.

Here we go… 30 books on my TBR.

  1. A Sky Painted Gold by Laura Wood – 2018
  2. Emma In The Night by Wendy Walker – 2017
  3. Charisma by Jeanne Ryan – 2015
  4. The Wonder of Us by Kim Culbertson – 2017
  5. The Light We Lost by Jill Santopolo – 2017
  6. Scythe by Neal Shusterman – 2016
  7. A Quiet Kind of Thunder by Sarah Barnard – 2017
  8. Three Dark Crowns by Kendare Blake – 2016
  9. Margot & Me by Juno Dawson – 2017
  10. Monday’s Not Coming by Tiffany D. Jackson – 2018
  11. The Electrical Venus by Julie Mayhew – 2018
  12. The State of Grace by Rachael Lucas – 2017
  13. Satellite by Nick Lake – 2017
  14. My Heart Goes Bang by Keris Stainton – 2018
  15. Wunderkids by Jacqueline Silvester – 2017
  16. Release by Patrick Ness – 2017
  17. The Chemist by Stephenie Meyer – 2016
  18. The Summer of Impossible Things by Rowan Coleman – 2017
  19. The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas – 2017
  20. Ascension by Victor Dixen – 2018
  21. Talking As Fast As I Can by Lauren Graham – 2017
  22. You Only Live Once by Jess Vallance – 2018
  23. The Summer of Us by Cecilia Vinesse – 2018
  24. The Invisible Library by Genevieve Cogman – 2015
  25. The Extinction Trials by S.M. Wilson – 2018
  26. Leah on the Offbeat by Becky Albertalli – 2018
  27. The Story of Our Lives by Helen Warner – 2018
  28. Killer T by Robert Muchamore – 2018
  29. A Gorda (The Fat Woman) by Isabela Figueiredo – 2016
  30. O Fim da Inocência (The End of Innocence) by Francisco Salgueiro – 2010

 

There is a good mix of books on that TBR. They are all books that I currently own a physical copy or ARC by the way. I’m hoping to come around to read them soon.

Have you read any of the books on the list? Any favourites? Any that I should totally put on the top of my TBR? Let me know in the comments.

Birthday Countdown: 6 DAYS TO GO!

*Fangirlsince1988 xxx

 

 

30 Get to know me questions

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In a week, I’m going to be reaching the big 30! *hyperventilates*

Gosh, I’m getting old, ain’t I?

For the whole of this week leading up to my birthday, I’m going to be posting a post a day relating to my birthday, myself and 30!

Today, I’m starting it off with a Get To Know Me post and of course it will be 30 questions. I will try and keep it short and sweet.

1 – What is your full name?

Ana Filipa Simões e Silva Duarte

2 – Are you named after anyone?

I was told that when my mum was younger she wrote in her diary that if she had a girl she will be called Ana because she likes the name. The Filipa is because is mum’s second name. Simões because is my great grandma’s maiden name and if I didn’t had it mum will be the last one in the family with her name. Silva is my mum’s Surname and Duarte is dad’s Surname.

3 – Where were you born?

I was born in Restelo, Lisbon. Portugal. Fun fact: Right next to the hospital that I was born is the Nun’s school that I went to from 2nd to 4th grade. Across from both of them is my last high school!

4 – Who did you look up to growing up?

Family wise I think I always looked up to my Grandma Rita a little bit. The way she raised my adorable little aunt and uncle (yes, they are younger than me). The #RelationshipGoals with my granddad. The way that she just truly enjoys life and cares for her family. She is such an amazing woman who always have been there for me.

5 – Which of your parents you are more like?

Looks wise, I look like my mum the most, but I have my fathers eyes! (Inverted Harry Potter here!) Personality wise, I’m more like my dad. We both are chatter boxes! haha

6 – Do you have any siblings?

YAAAS! I waited too long for them! This year they will be 6 and 2 years old. They are the most amazing two little boys and I love them to death.

7 – What is your biggest accomplishment?

I would have to say getting my BA (hons) Film and Moving Image degree at Norwich University of the Arts. Just to put it in perspective, I was the first one in my family to finish High School (College/A level equivalent) and also the first and so far only person with a degree. Also, the degree was done in a different language from my own, so extra brownie points for that one!

8 – What is your biggest fear?

As Dumbledore put it best:

“It is the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more.”

― J.K. RowlingHarry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

9 – What is your biggest regret?

Believing that my writing English skills weren’t good enough for me to follow a publishing and/or writer career path. Now I’m almost 30 and starting all over again. Follow your dreams people, no matter what!

10 – What is your eye colour?

Hazel, which I love!

11 – What has required the most courage of you in your life so far?

Moving to England. From someone that has lost so much before, making the decision to leave the family I love the most to follow my dreams was hard. However, I don’t regret it one bit.

12 – Who is your favourite Celebrity?

Hard question as I love a lot of celebrities. But my ultimate celebrity is definitely Oprah. You can read more about when I met her this year here.

13 – What is your favourite colour?

Green.

14 – What is your favourite drink?

It’s a tie between Rose Lemonade and anything with Elderflower in it.

15 – What is your favourite food?

This is hard. I love food! Literally almost everything! But I do love granddads amazing roast beef and leek pie! It’s to die for.

16 – What is your favourite Ice Cream flavour?

Banoffee or close enough to banoffee flavour!

17 – What is your favourite physical activity?

Before my Hypermobility Syndrome got worse I loved surfing…badly I might add. Now I’m only allowed to swim, which to be fair anything water related is my favourite.

18 – What is your favourite way to pass time?

Obviously, reading!

19 – What is your favourite candle scent?

My dad gave me this amazing candle that is made out of the wax used on surfboards. It’s the best smell ever!

20 – What is your favourite social media channel?

Instagram. I love taking pictures.

21 -What was your favourite subject in High School?

Biology! There was a time that I wanted to be a Marine Biologist.

22 – What was your least favourite subject in High School?

Algebra! Anything mathematical. Literally best day in my life when I passed the exams and realised I never had to do it again.

23 – What was your favourite TV show as a child?

Animated, Dragon Ball! Non-Animated Gilmore Girls.

24 – Are you a dog person or cat person?

I’ve always been a dog person, because cats in Portugal are the devil! I’m not joking! When I moved to England I got to fall in love with cats.

25 – Are you a good cook?

Heck yeah I am! Just wished I wasn’t in a house share, so I could go back to being a godess in the kitchen.

26 – If you could eliminate one weakness or limitation in your life what would it be?

Self doubt. It does stop me doing things that I want to do because I think I’m not good enough.

27 – Who has left the most impact in your life?

My best friend Afonso who passed away when we were 17. His friendship and also his death really shape me to be who I am today.

28 – Can you do a split?

The perks of Hypermobility is that I have always been able to do a split. It’s a good party trick!

29 – Do you have a tattoo?

Yes. I have two actually.

30 – Last, a question to celebrate getting old. What medical conditions do you have?

Hypermobility Syndrome. Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. Irritable Bowel Syndrome. High Function Insomnia. Anxiety. At least that’s what has been diagnosed so far.

Hope you enjoyed getting to know me.

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How Do I Know If I’m Bisexual? – My Self Discovery Tale

“Don't worry about a thing,every little thing is gonna be alright”I have asked myself that very same question so many times over the years. How do I know if I’m bisexual? Really, how?

Most things in life don’t come with a manual, so you need to figure it out for yourself. I’m in no way saying that there should be a manual on how to be bisexual, but heck, I sure could have used one. Or at least someone to very clearly tell me ‘Ana, stop this heterosexual bullshit. You know you are bisexual, right?’.

Looking back now, I realise that the signs were all there. I just choose to ignore them. It was easier that way.

The first time that I remember wondering if I was bisexual was when I was about 12 years old. I was flipping channels in my bedroom when this new TV show came on. I decided to give it a go and I was instantly hooked. Gilmore Girls was perfection but the thing is, I couldn’t take my eyes of the most gorgeous women I’d ever seen. To this day I still have the biggest celebrity crush on Lauren Graham, or Lorelai Gilmore as she is known in the show. That show not only made me question my sexuality, but also shaped me as a woman.

I wasn’t the only 12 year old in love with that show, a lot of my friends were too. However, while most of the girls were all giddy about their crushes on Dean and Jess, the two young teenage boys of the show, I wasn’t that bothered. I remember 12 year old me thinking that I must not be normal. All the other girls were obsessing over the boys, I should have been doing the same. So when they asked me who I thought was the hottest, I said ‘Jess’.

That was the first time I lied to myself.

How come, I’m almost 30 years old and do not know my own sexuality? I believe that for the most part it has to do with the fact that I have grown up in Portugal. I grew up with a lot of comments like:

‘I don’t have anything against it but I really don’t understand it!’

‘I’m okay with them getting married but now to adopt? I don’t think so.’

‘Well, I kinda understand being a Lesbian or Gay but what’s Bisexual? That’s just another word for greedy. Pick a side’.

For the other part I was 100% sure I was attracted to boys, so I did what it was asked of me, I picked a side.

‘Maybe I’m not bisexual! Maybe I’m just the type of person who can appreciate the same sex, doesn’t mean I’m attracted to them.’

That’s what I kept saying to myself. Ignoring the fact. I had the same amount of crushes on female wrestlers than male. Ignoring the fact, that any red head female on TV just got my love instantly (looking at you Debra Messing).

It’s like I was trying to find excuses for my own sexuality.

When I was 16, I questioned things again. At that point I only had kissed boys so I thought that my doubts as a kid were a thing of the past.

However, on a night out clubbing those doubts come crumbling back in the shape of the softest strawberry lips ever, and the touch of a beautiful girl.

We are big on dancing in Portugal, that’s the main reason to go clubbing, so it’s also very normal when you are a good dancer that other good dancers approach you. There aren’t any intentions from it, apart from having some fun. (Not sure if things are still the same, for one the legal drinking age limit has gone up from 16 to 18 years old).

That night while I was dancing, this gorgeous girl – with beautiful long curly hair and who was maybe a year older than me – came up dancing next to me. She moved to the beat like the music was an extension of herself. I was in a trance, captivated by her movements. We danced together for a few songs, the club couldn’t get their eyes off us and I couldn’t get my eyes off her.

Later on that night I went outside for some fresh air, and there she was. She approached me ‘You are such a great dancer’ she said to me. I was still mesmerised when she gently grabbed me by the waist and kissed me. I’m sure that my reaction to such a surprise kiss should have been seen as sign (Oh yes, I kissed her back and don’t regret it one bit).

That kiss haunted me for years to come. Every time I put myself out there as a heterosexual my mind came knocking ‘But what about that kiss? Remember how you enjoyed it?’. The thing is, it was much easier to repress that other side of my sexuality than having to deal with the storm of comments. Things were already hard as they were growing up, I really didn’t want to bring something else to the plate.

I believe I repressed that side of me, because I thought I was doing myself and my family a favour, but I realised now that not being true to myself did me no favours.

Growing up, I never talked with people about my doubts. I never actually stopped to have a proper conversation about it with a friend. Maybe if I had, things would’ve been different. I think in my mind, I thought if I didn’t said it out loud to anyone then it wouldn’t be real.

I know, stupid, right? Doesn’t really work like that. It’s always real, even if you don’t admit it to yourself.

Throughout all of these doubts in my life I’ve always known where I stand for LGBTQ+ rights. I’ve always made a stand for equality and to try and change people’s narrow mindedness. I always challenged my family’s views on it. Always defended anyone being bullied for being who they are.

But what I don’t understand is how could I be so strong for others and be so weak for myself? I know now that I was living the life that was expected of me, and not what I wanted for myself.

Moving to England at 21 was when my self discovery as a woman started. I became who I was supposed to be. Still it took me until last year to actually make the first step to talking with someone about being bisexual.

I think it was because I thought, what was the point now? I have been in a loving relationship with the most amazing (and handsome, if I do say so myself) man for the past seven years. I found who I want to spend my retirement days with, so is there any need to figure out now, if I’m bisexual or not?

I realise that part of the struggle was the fact that I had never actually hung out with bisexual people before. I’d always hung out with people that were straight, lesbian or gay. It wasn’t until recently that I connected on Twitter with some freaking awesome girls, two of whom are bisexual, and who gave me a better understanding of myself.

I learned that bisexuality isn’t as black and white as it was made to be. It’s more like a spectrum, and suddenly it all made sense to me.

This is what led to me asking my fellow bi-friend in the middle of a bookshop ‘How do I know if I’m bisexual?’ She looked at me and said ‘Well, if you saw yourself single would you consider dating a woman?’ I don’t think I even hesitated when I said that I think so. ‘Well, there you go then. Welcome to the club!’ she said.

Coming to terms with my own sexuality in the middle of a bookshop at 29 years old wasn’t how I saw things panning out. But hey, better later than never, and at least I was surrounded by the things that bring me the most joy. We then kept chatting away via group text that day and it was a relief to just let it all out.

That was the first time I talked out loud about my doubts. I came home that day and nervously talked with my boyfriend about it. I told him that I had been having these doubts for some time and that I thought I was bisexual. ‘I kinda always thought you may be a bit. Do you feel better knowing?’ Heck Yes I do! Especially, when you have someone so understanding like him by your side.

I now have talked about it with three of my best friends that know me for so long and everyone has been super supportive. One of my best friends being a Portuguese gay man, really understands the doubts.

For him there wasn’t a way for him to repress his feelings, he knew he was gay and he had to grow up in Portugal with the struggle of being gay man. I got the easiest escape, as the only person bullying me was myself.

I have come a long way, but I feel that I would never be able to be completely honest with everyone. I still struggle to see a reason to tell my family who I truly am. We’ve all gone through so much, and we still are. I’m never truly myself around them anyway. I love them more than anything in the world, but we are so very different.

Most won’t understand it, especially with me being in a relationship with a man and the fact that I’ve never had one with a woman. People find it hard to grasp that you don’t need to have a relationship with the same sex to be sure if you are bisexual. It pretty much goes the same way as falling in love with the opposite sex. It’s literally the same. I don’t need to go check out a vagina to know. Just sayin’.

For now this is the end of my tale, and there isn’t any better way to finish this than by saying:

Hi, I’m Ana, I’m bisexual and proud! X

*Fangirlsince1988 xxx

This post was originally posted on Thehairypotato.co.uk.

Blog Tour: A Bad Boy Stole My Bra by Lauren Price

Synopsis From Goodreads

Imagine waking up in the dead of night to find your hot new neighbour dangling out of your window. What’s more, he’s clutching your tattiest bra in his hand.

What. The. Actual. Fudge.

When bad boy Alec Wilde moves in next door to Riley, sparks fly. After their ‘unconventional’ introduction, Riley is determined to get her own back. A nemesis is just the distraction she needs: inside, she’s barely holding it together. It’s game on.

But behind the banter, there’s a side to Alec that Riley actually likes. How can she get through to the real him when she can’t even take herself seriously?

Review

Lauren Price debut novel A Bad Boy Who Stole My Bra first came out on Wattpad, the readers loved it so much that it got picked up by a Ink Road, from Black and White Publishing. I wasn’t one of the Wattpad readers, but I’m definitely a fan now.

As I have mentioned before, I am a bit of a sucker for romantic YA books, especially the ones that are a bit of a slow burner. The will they or will they not moments are always the best. There isn’t anything better than screaming ‘Freaking FINALLY!’ at your book when the main character and her love interest finally get together.

A Bad Boy Who Stole My Bra not only has a funny title but the banter between Riley and Alec will just make you laugh out loud on the bus.

I used to be a bit of a prankster, especially when it came to prank boys! This book basically brought back all those funny memories of my teenage years. Which was too long ago! I absolutely love Riley and Alec’s relationship, from how it started to how it ended, and all the banter in between.

At times the story can fall a bit into some of the romance clichés but I would say that is still modernised cliché. As keeps all the best bits and takes away the bad ones. For example, even though there is a typical mean girl, I like how there isn’t any kind of slut shaming which is often too overused as a way to bully each other. It’s quite refreshing.

This book its perfect for any young Romance lovers out there. You will laugh, you will cry and you will make sure you lock your bedroom window so no bad boys come steal your bra at night!

It’s funny and witty, with a big dose of romance. Just how I like it!

Rating: ★★★★☆

A Bad Boy Stole My Bra by Lauren Price is out in paperback and is available for purchase on Amazon(affiliated link).

Thanks Ink Road for sending me an ARC of  A Bad Boy Stole My Bra in exchange for my honest review.

*FangirlSince1988 xxx

Blog Tour: The Truth About Lies by Tracy Darnton – Review

Synopsis from Goodreads

Jess has an incredible memory. She can remember every single detail of every single day since she was eleven. But Jess would rather not be remarkable and, after years of testing at the hands of a ruthless research team, she has finally managed to escape.

Just when Jess thinks that she’s managing to settle in to living a normal life, everything changes. Her boarding-school roommate dies and the school is thrown into a state of chaos and grief. Then new boy Dan appears and Jess can’t help but find herself drawn to him. But building relationships is hard when you can’t reveal who you really are and Jess is getting hints that someone knows more about her than she would like.

Is it time to run again? Will she ever be truly free?

Perfect for fans of E. Lockhart, Eve Ainsworth and Sophie McKenzie.

Review

One of my favourite things about The Truth About Lies by Tracy Darnton is Jess, the main character. She isn’t your typical likeable character to start with but the more you get into her head and understand how her brain works you start to warm up to her. I do tend to love an unlikable character, one that comes with many flaws and hidden secrets.

The book is extremely well written and I love that each chapter starts with a quote on the subject of Memory. Not only you are reading an awesome story, but you are also learning a few things about Jess’s condition.

I’m not gonna lie, when I was younger I wished I had photographic memory so I could be one of those people who could recite entire books to others, like I had a super skill. 

As any good thriller, straight from the beginning of the book, you start asking too many questions, who is Jess hiding from? What really happened to her roommate? Who is sending Jess creepy notes? Is Dan really interested in her? Is the new teacher actually a teacher? Is Jess’s memory actually that reliable? Has anyone been in my room and moved things around? Is someone following me? Is my boyfriend really my boyfriend? 

Just like Jess I was getting too suspicious of everything and everyone. However, Jess has her reasons for it. The more you get into the story, the more you get to understand why Jess is how she is, and why she is so suspicious of everything. I like how we get so deep in her mind and her feelings that even I was suspicious of every new character and start to read in between the lines maybe a bit too much.

I do love a good thriller and The Truth About Lies really kept me on my toes until the end. If you like thrillers, with a dash of romance and a good dose of mystery this book is definitely for you. Just be aware that this book can also leave you a bit paranoid and suspicious of everything and everyone.

Rating: ★★★★☆

The Truth About Lies by Tracy Darnton will be out in paperback on the 12th of July and is available for pre-order on Amazon(affiliated link).

Thanks Stripes for sending me an ARC of The Truth About Lies in exchange for my honest review.

*FangirlSince1988 xxx

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